commentary vs. self-reflection.

one is literally easier said, yet should be reserved.

Where do I even begin? So much has happenned. Tears and feelings for which I regret when I shouldn’t, can’t be undone. I know I shouldn’t depend on anyone but I still do. It’s never mutual but why do I still cling on? I ask myself every single night. You’re like home to me. Deep down, I tell myself; I know you care. But you don’t have to answer me back. God will give me the answers and more. Somehow. Someday.

Note to self

“Inspirational” stories that paint you to be an honourable and influential person – You’re on a roll all right. But lets honestly ask ourselves, are we really deserving of that thing called “honour”? Which is rightfully given to someone or earned; and not attributed to one’s self. Let’s not pride ourselves in achieving nobility. Rather, sensibility and sincerity.

So full of the superficial

this song never fails to strike a chord in me. The world we live in today is filled with material things, we forget and totally miss the mark of the value of the little things – usually the things that actually matter in life. Such as love, friendship, family, and quality t-i-m-e. These material things are like chains. We are so busy chasing wealth, our health is compromised, our relationships are affected, we fail to realize that there is no greater wealth than contentment. Just food for thought

Sunshine in the pouring rain

Today marks the end of Ninja’s 04/13 PTP leadership batch. Also my first batch as an armskote IC. I’ve learnt and gained so much from performing my usual daily responsibilities and duties. For those unfamiliar with the term, my main responsibilities include managing my company’s rifles. A total of 254 of them. Challenging at first, but thankfully with help and guidance from my peers, ive gotten the hang of it and really learnt to enjoy it as well.

My armskote boys have been the best bunch. Helpful, smart, fun and highly iniative individuals. They’ve really made it a whole lot easier for me. I hope they’ve enjoyed it as much as I did, most importantly learnt something along the way.

Well, all good things come to an end.

But, must they really?

Just like the saying above, indeed I am always reminded that everything we have in this world is temporary. Be it good or bad.

I just think of it as God’s way of showing us not to take things for granted. You may have hit the jackpot one day, but it takes one tiny detail for it to be gone the very next.

Likewise, when you’re having a bad day, when things just dont seem to go your way, you shouldn’t lose faith and give up. Things will eventually turn around.

Life may not be fair, but God is.

He is just.

Lately, these past few months, coincidentally early on during the 04/13 batch, I’ve experienced some sort of spiritual awakening if you’d like to call it. How it happened? Let’s just say I met an angel.

Everything I do now, I’ll always think of how my actions fare in god’s path, first and how it would affect other people, second. No one wants to be selfish right?

Im slowly trying to cut down on my bad habits, its liberating.

But hey, no one said this was easy. No one said it would be this hard too.

When insecurities kick in, you hear all these voices in your head, it clouds your own. People say im not the same person anymore. ‘Its like I dont know who you are anymore.’ It shouldn’t hurt cause im doing this for myself, but it does.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason though. Fate

I’m so grateful for all the people ive met. Its like god wants me to meet them so that I can be a better me. I treasure and cherish all the relationships I have in life right now. Family, friends. They know who they are. I always make it a point to express my love and gratitude for and towards them because…

Once again, our lives in this world is temporary. We never know when’s our last breath. My biggest fear is to leave this world, with not having those that I care about, know how much I love and appreciate them.